Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Committing to Committment
I have been really busy lately and have not had time to blog. Things are going pretty well relationship wise. I really miss going to therapy. My husband is reverting back to some of his old attitude issues and I have to check him. He always apologizes and fixes, but I make it a point to let him know that the days of me accepting all of his bullshit are over.
We've been spending a lot of time together and it's nice because we enjoy each others company again. We have an understanding and the motivation to keep our relationship strong is definitely there. We're both very committed. It feels good.
The only thing that's stressing me out is work. I'm in a battle with my managers who want to work me to death and not pay me. I've been at the same job for almost 15 years and they know how hard I work. If they do not show me how valuable they keep telling me I am I may have to leave. I know the economy is terrible right now but I cannot allow myself to be taken advantage of.
I have really missed blogging. Life has just been really busy. I have to honor my committment to this blog because it is what helped me get through a difficult time in my life. Blogging about what was going on, and receiving advice and comments from other bloggers, really helped me to step back and take a look at what was going on in my life. Things aren't perfect, but they are definitely much better.
It feels great to feel as though I can look to the future without the mistakes of the past clouding my every memory and thought. My husband is a new man and is no longer a dead man walking. The trust is not 100% but we both know it's going to take time. Going to marriage counseling was a big step, but we both know we have a lot of work to do.