Friday, January 2, 2009
I Got A New Attitude
I'm feeling great. I have really shed the drama of 2008 and my spirit is filled with determination. I can actually feel the difference. 2009 is going to be a great year for me because I am claiming it. I finally realized that the universe only returns what you give. I've spent a lot of years trying to guard myself from disappointment that it was all I got. I'm done with that way of thinking.
My husband and I went to a great party on new year's eve and had a ball. We danced and drank the night away and it was wonderful. We made promises to one another with our eyes. No words were spoken, but we both know what time it is. This is our year. I know things are going to work out. I'm all about success in every area of my life. My mental, physical, spiritual, and financial self will improve and reach heights like never before. I know it in my heart. I'm getting chills as i'm writing this.
I really am a different woman. I'm a work in progress, but I know that I will achieve the goals I have set for myself. There are so many things I want to do for myself. I've dedicated my life to my family for so long that I forgot what it was like to do for me. That time is over. Of course I love my family, but the better I feel about me the better i'll be to them.
The woman that is me began the metamorphosis stage in the middle of 2008 and she is ready for the process to end. I've learned so much over the years and i'm finally ready to put all of my knowledge to use and become the woman i've always wanted to be. No more will I worry about others and damage myself in the process. 2009 is the year of ME.
It feels wonderful to say i'm letting things go and mean it. I am completely open and ready to give my husband everything I have. I don't want to judge him or make him hurt the way I hurt like I once did. All I want to do is love him. I truly think that he is my soul mate. That is the only way I can explain us still being together. He has the string that is pulling my heart. Every time I tried to think of leaving I couldn't bring myself to think of life without him. I know he loves me. I know the man he is capable of being and I see him becoming that man again. I'm excited!
I may have to change the name of my blog. I'm not the same scorned woman I was when I began this journey. I'm ready for love from my man as well as love of self. I've never felt this way before. I can't wait to see what 2009 brings.